September will be a month of emotional adjustments. For some signs this will have to do with discipline and order. For others it will have to do with how they negotiate the romantic past. On September 9th, there will be a new moon in Virgo. This will test your physical endurance. Pay attention to all the ways you spend energy throughout the day, and the days around the 9th. Speak only when you need to. Conserve. On September 20th, there will be a full moon in Pisces. It would be wise to spend it thinking of a very old place. Being in a very old place. Celebrating something with age.
Love is coming your way,
This summer you considered the big picture. You know where you are. You have an idea of where you want to be. And you’re moving through the days without saying much to anyone about it. You’re keeping your dreams to yourself. You’re preparing for something monumentally important. Something that will take a long time. So keep going. Do whatever you need to go on. Secrets will help.
You’ve reconsidered your idea of love. You’ve changed your mind yet again and there will be more changes. There will be a day in which something green surprises you. There will be a quiet park. There will be a very hot dish. And a cold one. And unpractical shoes. You will be charmed by it all. You will want to do it again. But remember, it’s actually happening now. And you’re there.
A very long conversation with a friend will comfort you. It may not change circumstance, but not many things do. You will take heart in how loved you are. You will feel it, even though you’ll want more. And there is more. Of autumn. Of coffee alone. Of books and walks too. You will surprise yourself by saying yes to many new things. And they will remind you: you’re truly not stuck. You’ve just been taking your time to try breathing again.
You will find hope in a hopeless situation. It will take you awhile to get over it, but you will. What you need to focus on is the red thunder. The blue wind. And the clouds which pass by without giving advice. Do not look for answers. Do not return to those who won’t value return. For some hours each week, write down the three night things that move you. And watch yourself regain the confidence to sit still. To be with only yourself.
What you couldn’t find in summer will follow you into fall. The not finding, yes, but the questions will change too. And maybe what hasn’t arrived is exactly which protects you. Maybe you’ve placed too much power in want. And you’ll try to change spaces, and places, think about changing your hair, the whole morning feeling, the doubt. What you don’t know is how close you are to freedom. You just have to stop thinking it’s yes or no.
Sometimes you can feel the whole world feel. And you say nothing of it. You just move through the hours. This month will give you an opening to sit with your feelings. You will wonder if the blue is permanent. You will go inside it. You will swim there for a while and feel lost. Do know that nothing is permanent. Do keep touching the branches. The rooftops. The very high things.
You are ready for the season of the soul. You are a hat worn to the theater. You will be the beautiful ornament everyone tries to place in the room. And one of these nights, you’ll find yourself home alone not thinking of anything. Anyone. You will feel a palatial calm. You will breathe again, very deeply. And then even as all the worries return, you will know you already swam through something quite large.
The time will be dusk. You will gather many stories and present much evidence. You will begin to see the past in a new way. Will it matter? Perhaps. But the light is coming toward you regardless. Even if no one sees things like you. Even if no one has the depths of devotion you do. Forgive them. Forgive what you once swore with such vehemence you would never forgive.
It is beautiful that you’ve stopped paying attention. Nothing really matters. There is only the dream and the passion of your pursuits. Maybe you have always known this. Maybe it wasn’t until now that you believed that was true. Regardless, keep going. There are so many snakes and you can count them, exactly. You always knew who they were. They took advantage of all your good luck. They won’t now.
The chill in the air will impress you. It will give you a real reason to continue. The slog of summer is over. Your mind returns to itself again. You are back to your people and your daily routines. There will be many hours of doubt. There will also be breakthroughs. Whatever you do, don’t forget that endurance is the only way anyone wins. And you can. And you will. And the lights do come on.
A big question arrives in your lap wrapped in red. You can carry it with you across many days. You can set it beside you at night. Sometimes you will awake and yearn to touch the grass. Sometimes there will be flowers at noon. And when the alarms go off, you will mute everything but the heart. You won’t speak with it either. You will investigate exactly where it intends to fight its next war. Do not worry. Do not.
Sometimes you need a little lightning and thunder. Sometimes the rain sounds like clear days ahead. Everything you are looking for is also looking for you. No more messages. No more signs. It is true now. And a seat at the table where you have brought your real self. Where you have studied your pain. Where you can truly feel joy. You are the person everyone looks to because you are free.